Well, not much has been going on in regards to getting a new IUI cycle. I should be getting an HSG either this week or beginning of next week. Then next cycle I can FINALLY get another IUI. It's been almost 4 months since my miscarriage, it seems like it's been forever.
Emotionally it's been rough lately because of not knowing if it'll ever really work. Everyone I know has kids (well...just about) or is pregnant. Yesterday I saw a pregnant girl (not married...) smoking and it literally sent me in a rage. All I wanted to do was yank that thing out of her mouth and beat the crap out of her. I had to hold back...and the sad thing is, I think the only thing that stopped me is the chance of John getting in trouble because of me doing that. I've been at the point where I keep wondering why I can't have a baby and everyone else on planet earth can...including the crap people who don't deserve to raise a baby (I know I don't have the right to judge, but some people are obviously not fit).
I just want to hurry and get to November...I'm finally just about done with dental school program (two more days!) and I'm starting a new school in November as well. I just want to be a mom.
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