I traveled back to Fukuoka yesterday only to get a yellow light and more injections and Femara. Of course I had to stop for my typical Starbucks :) People say I make any excused to get my Starbucks, but really? why not? lol it's right there!
So tomorrow I take my 4th Follistim injection and continue taking more Femara to hopefully get those follicles growing! Only one was growing at the time at 10mm. They really need to be 22mm to be able to trigger for ovulation. Last IUI cycle (pregnancy) I had one at 19mm and one at 14mm, I really don't know if they grew anymore by the time I did ovulate, but I'm hoping to maybe get better than that! I go back on Saturday to see how things are progressing, I pray that we get good results and go on to do our IUI Monday or Tuesday!
I had a rough day on the train ride back home though. Maybe it was the song playing on my iPod or just my crazy hormones starting to rage from all these injections and medications. I could barely hold back my tears and just begging God to give us this cycle and a healthy baby. It would be a perfect Christmas gift and all that I care about getting. I'm just tired of seeing pregnant person after pregnant person; this base is like a rabbits nest!
I didn't post about this one thing someone said at dinner last week...which I need to get off my chest because it was probably one of the most hurtful things I've heard - regardless of the fact that it wasn't said directly at me or probably even meant to mean anything to me.
This guy we've been friends with for a long time said at dinner out-in-town with about 4 couples, said that you can tell that all the guys here "like to hump" because all the kids here. My husband wasn't even there due to being on duty, but REALLY? I almost had to walk out to gather myself and recoup. It took all of my will power to hold back my tears. I realize he didn't mean it bad towards me and I don't expect everyone to cater to the fact that for FIVE years we have been trying unsuccessfully and just recently suffered a loss. I sometimes wish people would be a little more sensitive, it's not really a secret how bad we want kids or how hard we are trying. I know people don't understand what all goes on and fertility issues are just now a topic being discussed and openly talked about. I just felt so sad. The rest of the dinner I tried to focus on friends that were leaving and talk with them.
Today has been a little better, trying to stay busy with my new class (last class made an A - go me! lol). It looks like this class will be a little more time consuming however, so I hope this takes my mind off my possible TWW (two week wait) here soon.
