Mid Month

So I found a new series on TLC, well I guess it's not really "new" but it's new to me. It's called A Conception Story. Definitely emotional to watch, because most of the women are going through IVF. I hope I never have to get to that point however, time will tell. It's nice to see people going through the same issues I am, feeling alone and guilty for my husband because he's perfectly capable of giving me a child.

I'm to the point of horrendous hot flashes and tons of mini meal feasting in result of Clomid and Metformin. I feel like I am going to die over a heat stroke a good chunk of the day! But I am hopeful and I know it'll be worth it in the end. I haven't taken any ovulation predictor tests because my doc gave me a schedule rather than winging it based on a test. The schedule is working well so far. I wish I have been taking OPTs though, because I feel kind of lost in my cycle. I have been taking temps when I actually hear my alarm every morning, but I can't rely on them either. I cannot wait until next week when my husband's work shift is switched to day shift and I can get on a regular sleeping, eating and temping schedule.

Although I found out I am going for oral surgery the 7th of next month. Which I guess isn't horrible, but it'll damper our trying I think, depending on how I recover. I see the doc hopefully before then and I'll be able to test before surgery, so if God blesses us with a baby, then wisdom teeth will need to wait. I know my emotions are going crazy, I feel like I'm exhausted but I can't sleep and I'm half crying over little things. I still haven't heard anything from my last blood test result, so I'm anxious to hear about it.